Monday, December 3, 2012

lalalalalala

Well it's a piece of my story from 1 month behind

      In the end of October i was called by someone from hospital and they told me to redo my lung's rontgent. I thought that ( oh my God is just because i smoked or what) that's why i came to hospital and redo my rontgent test again, in 20 min. they did it and showed me the result . And yeah i got something strange with my lymphotic system cause they almost covered half of my left lung..
then i contacted my personal doctor in university, they said that i have to take CT scan. and yeah in the next week i gave it and in 2 days i got the result already, they said i have limphodenopathy and some possibility of Hodgkin disease. From that time until now, every day i only have to stay in my bed and give a lot of analyzes almost every day.. 

At 22nd of November i finished with all of my blood test and in the next day i went to Kazan with friends from UNESCO's stuff. Yes, it was great, and Kazan just a beautiful city. A nice trip at least, i could forget my pain a bit from my chest. After that vacation i came back to Ufa and started to visit and consult with cancer and lungs specialists. And they decided to do biopsy to me, so i can know exactly what the fuck it is 
And finally i met Hematology doctor to consult with and just today 3.12.2012 they did me biopsy.. 

it was a painful one, because until night i keep feeling the pain.. 
so i am still waiting for my results from biopsy and tomorrow morning i have to go to lung doctor.
so guys, please take care of your health

it was a great 2 month and a great experiences for me, 
i know now how to face doctor, and even joking with another patient,

I want to live 10000 more year..

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Romantika anak muda

Judulnya asu gila yee?

Yap Yap. Itu yang sebenernya lagi terjadi sama gue selama liburan ini. Setelah sekian lama jadi lover boy abal2 (karena ditolak melulu) akhirnya gue pacaran juga kaya anak2 muda yang lainnya.
Gue ngerasa beruntung banget dapet pacar yang ga suka romantika2 gombal. Kita ga perlu ngomongin rasa sayang kita, ga perlu kata2 manis buat ngegambarin perasaan kita, we just have to show it. Dari awal pacaran yang dimulai dari LDR, gue ngerasa nih cewe kok agak ga suka ama sweet words, ada apa gerangan (jiah!). Ternyata setelah ketemu, gue jadi ngerti apa sih yang dia mau, dari cara kita ngomong, ngasih perhatian dengan cara lain, dengan cara kita nge date, orang juga pasti tau, damn we're in love. Gue seneng banget bisa bikin dia ketawa, senyum gara2 tingkah laku gue yang agak nyeleneh, kalo dia bilang sih, gue kelebihan energi ,contoh : tiba2 gue ngelakuin gerakan aneh kaya ksatria bertopeng yang di shinchan, atau tiba2 gue goyang ga jelas.
Even gue ga ngelakuin apa2 dia pasti akan ketawa, karena mainin lemak guee -____-
Yah, karena kebanyakan pacaran gue jadi keabisan waktu ama temen2 gue, sebenernya sih bukan keabisan waktu, temen gue pas gue lagi kosong, mereka sibuk, jadinya yah gue khayal2 aja deh ama pacar gue.

Tapi sayangnya liburan gue udah mau abis, gue gamau liat kalender lagi jadinya, gue gamau ninggalin dia sendirian lagi kaya dulu. Gue kayanya akan bikin hari2 terakhir gue ama dia jadi hari yang berkesan. Kebetulan dia juga lagi libur, jadi gue bisa ajak dia jalan2 kemana2 deh.


Yang ada di pikiran selama ini, gue gatau kalo gue kehilangan dia, apa kabarnya ya? gue bakal ancur seancur2nya, hope it won't happen, amit2. Walau masih jauh dari kehidupan yang sebenernya, gue berharap supaya dia bisa jadi bini gue nantinya(yah, namanya juga harapan, we'll never know).

Intinya, gue harus belajar lagi, masih ada 3 tahun gue blajar, mudah2an bisa lulus bagus, dapet kerja, kawin deh ama lo deh swinochka! ya ga? Apa yang ada di masa depan biar jadi misteri aja, yang gue pengen adalah hari2 yang ada sama lo, bisa jadi hari2 yang lucu dan ga akan kita lupain (aseeek!).

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

M for my M

Yap, she is my legal girlfriend now, i love her so. Many things we went through, many dates we've been through and now we kind of understood each others. We accept every imperfection we have, all we do now is just how to maintain our heart so then we don't fall to our worst worst expectation.

Now not much times left for me, only 2 weeks from now on i'll leave you (again).
This is my messages to you:
I hope you won't forget:
1.Our first date, yap that time i felt like you're in shock to see me (damn i was so awkward).
2.Our laughs
3. Your favorite name you gave to me : Babi, Gembul, Swinchik, Gendut, Da Po
4. Our jogging times (damn, i love to do it)
5. My massage kit
6. My lovely tiny car (though it is so small, we can do what we like even we can go to Bandung together)
7.Our habits
8. Each members of my family.
9. my pinches on your hand and scars we made (damn we are hardcore joker)
10. and finally our lovely foods.

2 months and a half is really a short time for us to know each others, but at least we know that we can be the best couple in front of the God's face.

I love you my .......

everything.

~fin

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Ufa?

Ufa adalah ibukota dari Republik Bashkortorstan, terletak berbatasan dengan Asia dan terletak di Rusia tengah.Dengan populasi 1 juta penduduk Ufa adalah salah satu kota terbesar di Rusia, Ufa adalah kota industri dan ekonomi dan juga pusat ilmu pengetahuan. Di sini terletak industri perminyakan dan banyak perusahaan minyaknya membuka kantor di Ufa sebagai pusat pendistribusian minyaknya. Kota yang berjarak 1500km dari Moscow ini juga terletak pabrik juga pembuatan mesin2 pesawat terbang.

DUNIA PENDIDIKAN:
Universitas-universitas yang ada di Ufa:
  • Bashkir State University,
  • Bashkir State Teachers Training University named after M.Akmulla,
  • Bashkir State Medical University,
  • Ufa State Aviation Technical University,
  • Ufa State Petroleum Technological University,
  • Ufa Architectural University,
  • Ufa Agricultural University,
dari 7 Universitas di atas ada 2 yang sangat diminati oleh mahasiswa2 Indonesia di Indonesia
yaitu : Ufa State Petroleum Technological University dan Ufa State Aviation Technical University. Ada beberapa kemudahan yang kita bisa dapatkan di 2 Universitas ini,yaitu:
  1. tempat tinggal yang terstandarisasi,tidak sebagus Belgorad,tapi tidak seburuk Rostov.
  2. tempat praktik yang sudah disediakan,memudahkan kita mengerjakan tesis dan tugas akhir tahun
  3. di 2 universitas ini dibangun kompleks sedemikian rupa, sehingga semua kebutuhan kita bisa didapatkan dengan mudah.

Di Ufa sendiri sebenarnya ada Bashkir State Medical University, yang bisa dijadikan pilihan, karena di sana terkenal akan spesialisasi matanya.

TRANSPORTASI
ada beberapa pilihan transportasi di kota ini
Bashautotrans:Kita bisa keliling Ufa dengan bus super comfortable ini(15rub)
Bus biasa:Bus butut ini biasanya bikin kita eneg dan jengah ada di dalamnya (10rub)
Marshrutka: okey ini mobil kecil yang bawa adalah supir2 raceline(20rub)
Tramvai:kereta super lemot (9rub)

Biaya Hidup
jika bicara biaya hidup, saya cuma bisa tertawa,karena akan sangat bervariasi, tergantung orangnya. Tapi buat catatan saja, harga bahan makanan di sini lebih mahal,harga sayuran juga saat musim dingin sangatlah tidak masuk akal, harga mentimun saja bisa sampai 100 rubel per kilo.Untuk rincian kasarnya 2,5-4 juta sebulannya.

Untuk USPTU per tahunnya biaya pengeluarannya:
6500rubel untuk asrama
5000rubel untuk asuransi
2000rubel untuk visa dan registrasi
200rubel tes HIV

Cuaca
Pada dasarnya suhu di musim semi,panas dan gugur sama dengan kota2 di rusia,cuma saja berbeda dengan musim dingin.
Musim dingin di sini dimulai pada bulan November:suhu langsung drop ke -31 dan averagenya-17
pada bulan Desember dan Januari suhu sangat bervariasi dari -7 sampai -24
Pada bulan Febuari suhu mencapai -44 dan sangat ekstrim dinginnya



Untuk ini sekian dulu informasi yang bisa disampaikan dari Ufa.
it's nice for you guys to join us in our little family.

~fin




Sunday, January 30, 2011

Who is the racist one?us or them?

Well after a few times study in Russia, my eyes really opened up.The racism issue is what i want to talk to you about..

Okay, it began in my first week in Ufa, when i got drunk high with all of my classmates, i asked them with no excuse,impolitely, i asked them, Why you all don't do this racism things, though you are a real Russian, it's okay for us (foreigners) to get abused from you all, why?

Then one by one my classmates started to answer it, but the first thing they asked is : Are you high Hans? i answered: Yeah a bit.

Okay the first answer came from Tee... Man, we are human beings,we have rights to live, so why should i hate you? (diplomatic answer)

The second answer is : We are not a real Russian Hans, We are Bashkirian and Tatar.In our city there is no such things like racism, we are cool, the one we hate most are not foreigners, but you know those Ingus****an and Ce*** they are so disturbing.(make sense)

The third answer is : I uum hate foreigners, for what good reason u came here to study?is there no Petroleum University in your country?
so i responded: Yes there are some Petroluem University in our country,but we thought that Russian Petroleum University is better and has his unique way to teach their lesson for us,so why you hate us??something wrong??
He answered: Yeah the way you speak with your country mates,the way you get in the group with them, its oh so disturbing us, you know what we're speaking about, but we don't know what the hell are you speaking about. And you have the same rights with us,you'll get easier way to get good marks from the lecturer,it's because YOU ARE FOREIGNERS.(at first it doesn't make sense)

And now we passed the first semester,as the time goes by, the man who answered me that way still do those racism things, he is getting too cocky,simpy he doesn't want to know who we are(go to hell you cursed trash). But the rests of our classmates are cool and so friendly to us, it's proven by the way they helped us so much in exams,they are really really a good friends for us.

But anyway i thought there is no mistake at all to go racists on us, i considered those answer, i keep thinking about that until i found the truth why they should do racism things on us,it was in my winter holiday,in Moscow. In Moscow,there are a lot of indonesian peeps, and also students. The biggest mistake that we did is we brought our bad culture here, like going around together and spoke our beloved indonesian language so loudly(it's oh so F disturbing). And also the way of our Indofriendship is not right, we keep thinking that we are in Indonesia,just like lie to our promise, not on time, and the biggest one is we thought we are solid,but inside it we are torn apart into groups of Ethnical bullshit stuff like that,i called it Indoracism.

Indoracism (i guess i don't have to talk too much about that), yeah it will break our unity for real,for some example in some social organization, do we have to separate skin tone,race,or even eyes? let's call it Organization Bee,it's fulfilled with two major groups the first one who come from University Shii* and the second one University Bull, At the first time i came here to Russia the Shii* university thought they all always right and solid, but 1 and a half years later(today) it really is separated. The cause of that is race and religion, can you all believe it?
The second one is Bull University okay they keep steady with their shit and are solid,and not separated at all but there's only like 10 guys or even less.They practically dictated by the Shii* University, but what can they do? they are just keeping their shit out. And the the Cee organization contained Shii* that dictated Bull we can call it bullshit anyway,the result is yeah separation. And it's happened not in the inside of that simple social org. Even in Gov.Org those ethnical bullshit things happened!

That's our condition in Moscow, it's silly our friendship seems fake here and somehow you will notice that yourself is your own nightmare,yourself is truly racists.

And also me and my skinny friends thought there is only one problem,major problem for new students and also old irrational students -we called it "NORAK".It's seems fun to face the NORAK problems, for example for the male student when they saw Russian girl, soon they seemed like a hound dog, tongues out, and start sniffing. So be real guys, i know it's easy to fuck them, but hey come on WHERE IS YOUR RELIGION THING THAT YOU'VE LEARNT??GONE?it's also happened to the female studs,but they seemed not like a dog, they seemed like thirsty kitty in grooming season.

So there's no problem those racism organization do their practice,cause basically we are living in their country and we,ourself did racism.

But anyway i as INDONESIAN PEEP, really am disappointed, where is our unity? where is Bhineka Tunggal Ika?

Peace out.
and hopin for the best.

`fin


Friday, January 21, 2011

Reason to not sleep

What the hell is goin on with me?
When everyone is busy with their exams things, me i just getting high, cant sleep and bored with this stuff. I really need a good sleep cause im looking like zombie now, my face pale,my eyes red, and i got the panda's eye.But i can't for this reason :

1.Home trouble
My Mom started her long time habit,she can't sleep,a lot of problems she took it by herself.I don't know why if i go to sleep i feel pity for my mom, then we start a chat chat chat chat, she said stressed up with those homies probs. My Fams is cool, but the other fams of my mom keep disturbing his mind.

2.Exam
I dont know what to do with this exams stuff, cause the programs here are different, if u are in Indonesia, u can cheat. But here YES you can cheat, but u need to explain what u wrote and there will be another question from the teacher,it ruined my mind now.

3.Uncomfortable atmosphere in my room
Damn i got a fight with my roomate.Once i wanna sleep but then he starts to study,this thing keep me on fire.Then keep awake and doing my autism.

4.A lot of plan that should be realize
I dont know when i close my eyes my mind start to plan something.I plan for my brothers's life,i plan for my summer holiday, i plan for my future, even i can solve maths problems in my mind when i sleep.And when my plan stuck, i started to Googling.This things happen every ordinary night,not in exam's day.

And the effect of that Insomnia :
O i lost my weight so fast
Become an idiot
Become a locomotive
Become an alcoholic
Become Zombie


its straightly 5 days without sleep.
I need sleep.
Help

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Im just waiting and nothing more

Menunggu/waiting/ждать : adalah pekerjaan dimana kita harus meninggalkan suatu urusan sambil membiarkan waktu berjalan, definisi dari gue sih. Itu aja yang ada di otak gue pas denger kata orang (sebut: gebetan) tentang kata itu. Ada beberapa pertanyaan yang pop-up di otak gue pas denger kata tunggu dari dia:

1. Menunggu itu membosankan ga sih?
Bangeeeeeeeet! tapi kalo yang ditunggu itu pantes dan dia juga nunggu,kenapa menunggu itu membosankan?

2. Bisa ngga yah gue nunggu?
Yah ini susah nyari jawabannya, entah kenapa nungguin dia 1 tahun lagi,sama sekali ngga bikin gue patah semangat dan malah jadi semangat buat nguber pelajaran gue,hahha

3. Apa yang akan gue dapatkan dari menunggu 1 tahun?
Setiap hari juga ini yang ada di pikiran gue, tapi gue siap mau penantian gue berakhir sedih, bahagia, gue akan nerima semua hasil penantian gue dengan gentle

3 pertanyaan retoris di atas adalah akar dari semua keraguan gue nunggu dia
But, cmon Hans tanpa spekulasi, bukan Hans yang bener2 Hans, i love to spread my bullets until it reach my target.Gue bakal nunggu lo,until u say: Leave me! or Come with me!

Dan yah this blog is dedicated to my dearest future teacher in this world
Ms.M
I love you
just be sure that i will wait for u
Hope you'll be lady soon!